well what a week this has been all three of my girls got the chicken pox plus my dog (whom i was going to bred from) got a nasty infection and had to have her bits removed $$$$is all i see, well as long as she is ok.
Thens there my head, oh to change my brain my thought my worries, Things have been abit rough latly what with me and my hubby having to go bankrupt due to my spending when i am on a high and my family who we dnt talk to is making it hard threating to beat up me and my husband spreading rumours and making life horrible, i grew up inelson so there are alot of bad memories and bagague that i cant seem to avoid, So we are thining of moving to blenheim which i no will be very peacful and i have my inlaws there which means support from me but my hubby has such a good job where he is and we have a nice home grrr, im sitting on the fence and i dnt no which way to fall done the cons and pro and they all seem to fall dead equall???? Then theres the medication the 1.5 citalpram is great (i think) but the eplim keeps me awake so i take qutipene and that puts me to sleep but if i take it to late i cant wake up for the kids and if i take it to early i dnt get time with the hubby and im still feeling like im on the brink of a low just sitting there plus my anxoity is also playing up, every descion i make i fell scared it was the worng one. Sometime i wish someone would make the desions for me but then again that wouldnt work cause i wouldnt be in controll..... see my head a mess a jumble dont know weatheri am left or right grrrrr frastrated got so much to say...please talk to me on here i need some to talk to to vent or just to help someone yea well im going now before i turn into a big confused knotted mess lol
Take care all
